A funny thing happened to me in the last few minutes...
I was reading up on the movie...And the Band Played On. I love this movie. I love this book. There has always been the question in my mind about who Richerd Gere was playing in that movie. I just never caught it when I was reading the book, I guess. But then it went into a rant about how Reagan killed people by ignoring the AIDS epidemic, which I have beleived for such a long time. I always thought I was alone in my belief. I found someone else who thinks like I do. That almost never happens.
Yea for the internet!!!!

Great Day in the Morning People!!!!
I haven't blogged in a long time because I haven't had the time. But we live in a great nation. A nation where people can look at the presidency, see the direction our country is taking and change it on a dime. That's what happened on out illustrious election day. I was watching breathlessly waiting for election results to come in. Claire McCaskill was voted into the Senate. Talent is out. Stem Cell research passed. Democrats won control of the House and Senate. I know not everyone will agree with me, but November 7th was a great day for America. Also, Brittney Spears left that no-good stupid ass that she's been married to for the last two years. No more procreation from K-Fed, please!!!! I'm sure Brittney has beatiful babies, despite his genetic mark, but he's been allowed to help bring four children into this world. That's more than the average moron is allowed.
In a non-election note, this is finals week. A time that an anal person like me, just gets that much more anal. On Friday I will know that my fate is with this program. Pray for me and all my class mates. Pray that I won't kill them for getting on my nerves. Well, to be accurate, only a few get on my nerves. Right now the one who laughs like a stoned chipmunk and doesn't wash her hair is the one who gets on my nerves the most.

This is funny...
I took this from an email that I received. By no means am I this funny, just so you all know.
9 Things I Hate About Everyone
1. People who point at their wrist while asking for the time.... I know where my watch is pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the toilet is?
2 People who are willing to get off their ass to search the entire room for the T.V. remote because they refuse to walk to the T.V. and change the channel manually.
3 When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too". Damn right! What good is cake if you can't eat it?
4 When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is. Why the hell would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they? Gonna Kick their asses!
5 When people say while watching a film "did you see that?". No Loser, I paid $12 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor.
6 People who ask "Can I ask you a question?".... Didn't really give me a choice there, did ya sunshine?
7. When something is 'new and improved!' Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there must have been something before it, couldn't be new.
8 When people say "life is short". What the hell?? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does!! What can you do that's longer?
9 When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks "Has the bus come yet?". If the bus came would I be standing here, dumbass?

I think I cheated on this...
I cut and pasted from Judy's blog (and if I were smart I could figure out how to do this link thing that she does) but it looked fun and I wanted to do it too.
Bold everything you've done and leave the rest alone, right?
01. bought everyone in the bar a drink
02. swam with wild dolphins
03. climbed a mountain (small, small mountain; more like a molehill)
04. taken a ferrari for a test drive
05. been inside the great pyramid
06. held a tarantula
07. taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. said "i love you" and meant it
09. hugged a tree
10. bungee jumped
11. visited paris
12. watched a lightning storm at sea
13. stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
14. seen the northern lights
15. gone to a huge sports game
16. walked the stairs to the top of the leaning tower of pisa
17. grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. touched an iceberg
19. slept under the stars
20. changed a baby's diaper
21. taken a trip in a hot air balloon
22. watched a meteor shower
23. gotten drunk on champagne (cheap champagne)
24. given more than you can afford to charity
25. looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
27. had a food fight
28. bet on a winning horse
29. asked out a stranger
30. had a snowball fight
31. screamed as loudly as you possibly can
32. held a lamb
33. seen a total eclipse
34. ridden a roller coaster
35. hit a home run
36. danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
37. adopted an accent for an entire day
38. actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
39. had two hard drives for your computer
40. visited all 50 states
41. taken care of someone who was drunk
42. had amazing friends
43. danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. watched whales
45. stolen a sign
46. backpacked in europe
47. taken a road-trip
48. gone rock climbing
49. midnight walk on the beach
50. gone sky diving
51. visited ireland
52. been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. in a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
54. visited japan
55. milked a cow
56. alphabetized your cds
57. pretended to be a superhero
58. sung karaoke
59. lounged around in bed all day
60. played touch football
61. gone scuba diving
62. kissed in the rain
63. played in the mud
64. played in the rain
65. gone to a drive-in theater
66. visited the great wall of china
67. started a business
68. fallen in love and not had your heart broken
69. toured ancient sites
70. taken a martial arts class
71. played d&d for more than 6 hours straight
72. gotten married
73. been in a movie
74. crashed a party
75. gotten divorced
76. gone without food for 5 days
77. made cookies from scratch
78. won first prize in a costume contest
79. ridden a gondola in venice
80. gotten a tattoo
81. rafted the snake river
82. been on television news programs as an "expert"
83. gotten flowers for no reason
84. performed on stage
85. been to las vegas
86. recorded music
87. eaten shark
88. kissed on the first date
89. gone to thailand
90. bought a house
91. been in a combat zone
92. buried one/both of your parents
93. been on a cruise ship
94. spoken more than one language fluently
95. performed in rocky horror
96. raised children
97. followed your favorite band/singer on tour
98. passed out cold
99. taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. walked the golden gate bridge
102. sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
103. had plastic surgery
104. survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
105. wrote articles for a large publication
106. lost over 100 pounds
107. held someone while they were having a flashback
108. piloted an airplane (for three minutes, but I was totally in control)
109. touched a stingray
110. broken someone's heart
111. helped an animal give birth
112. won money on a t.v. game show
113. broken a bone
114. gone on an african photo safari
115. had a facial part pierced other than your ears
116. fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
117. eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
119. had major surgery
120. had a snake as a pet
121. hiked to the bottom of the grand canyon
122. slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
123. visited more foreign countries than u.s. states
124. visited all 7 continents
125. taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
126. eaten kangaroo meat
127. eaten sushi (yummy!)
128. had your picture in the newspaper
129. changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
130. gone back to school
131. parasailed
132. touched a cockroach
133. eaten fried green tomatoes (I even made them)
134. read The iliad
135. selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
136. killed and prepared an animal for eating
137. skipped all your school reunions
138. communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
139. been elected to public office
140. written your own computer language
141. thought to yourself that you're living your dream
142. had to put someone you love into hospice care
143. built your own PC from parts
144. sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
145. had a booth at a street fair
146. dyed your hair
147. been a dj
148. shaved your head
149. caused a car accident
150. saved someone's life (hopefully that will change with this career move)

Your turn...

I'm spending my time...
Watching the days go by. Not really, they're speding by too fast for me. The days go so quickly while in nursing school. I guess that's because my weeks are marked with tests and chapters to read and study. only two tests this week. I'm kind of excited. I took one today and got an A. I have noooo clue how. I really thought that I bombed this test. But I pulled an A... out of my ass. So...
I'm dealing with unresolved issues this week. I have some unresolved anger. A lot of unresolved anger. It burns me that I have to be the one to make most of the adjustments in my relationships. I remember that about my best friends. I love him dearly, in all kinds of ways, but I was the one who made the adjustments, when we were dating, when we were friends, and when we were friends with benefits. Now I'm having to do that again.
I'm the one who got left. I'm not the one who decided to screw my friend, my sister, over. I'm the one who got screwed. But I have to hear how my exsistence makes her miserable, on my special day no less, and I'm the one who gets screwed personally and professionally. I'm the one who has to make the excuses at work and at school and with my family. One of whom is my brother, who I esentially put on the back burner, to have her in my life. But none of that counts. Apparently I'm not her sister anymore. And that's what hurts the most. Everything else about this fight kind of pales in comparison. When I got screwed, my sister wasn't there to make it better. My loving boyfriend, now my fiance, was there and other people were there. But not the person who promised to be there.
I guess that's really what I have to deal with.

Things are definitely looking up...
I haven't completely abondoned my blog. I have just been so busy between school, work and getting ENGAGED!!!! I have a huge amethyst and diamond ring on my finger and it's not coming off until the jeweler needs to clean it. I'm so happy right now that everything has been coming together very well lately. Well, except for one thing. My health is mainly under control, I'm losing weight, my grades are outstanding, things are improving at work, and my relationship with John has never been better. I'm all kinds of on top of the world. I wish I could write more, but now I have to go study. I'm still working on the time management.

I just found my new favorite show...
I was pretty devastated when I found ut that the West Wing was not comeing back to depict President Santos' term(s) in office. Unlike in the United States of America, the people of the West Wing live in the United States of Wise Decisions. They elect Democrats to run their country 3 terms in a row. Anyway... Aaron Sorkin, genius that he is has got a new show... Studio 60 on the Sunset Strip. It's absolutely fantabulous!!!! The West Wing for the sketch comedy world. I recognized lots of West Wingers besides my beloved Joshua Lyman who plays Danny Tripp, a Director who has just tested positve for cocaine use. His sidekick is Matt Albie, played by Matthew Perry (it's been too long since Friends) who is a great comedy writer. Timothy Busfeild, Amanda Peet, Steven Weber... You have to watch this show people!!! If nothing else, put it on your tv so that the neilsons pick it up and I can be a fat, happy April watching a good show.
I know it's been 2 weeks since I blogged and a lot has happened. I have been a busy girl. Still in nursing school. Lost 20 pounds, thanks to an unhealthy gallbladder. And BB7 is now over. So is Rock Star: Supernova. I just wasted a whole summer people. Fricken losers who won these shows just piss me off. That's all I have to say about that. Also got to see my family yesterday, or at least part of it. Thank God!! I was in a desperate need for my family. My cousin Max turned two and as soon as my aunt sends me pictures and figure out how, I'm posting them. No kids of my own, so I get to post other people's children. I love Max, he's so laid back. His big brother, Joey, is like a drama king. He had everyone kick his shin guards yesterday to make sure they worked. Such a cutie. Gotta go for now!!!! By the way... www.meshasmind18.blogspot.com That's my cousin Michelle's blog. It's new, she's just starting out... give her some love people!!!

It All Comes Back To Family...
And even after I realized that again today as I spent what should have been study time talking to various members of my family. I didn't talk to Justin as I talked to him last weekend and I spent this whole week regreting that. I have to do this stupid assignment and your wife is the backgraound yelling the whole time. What the hell??? Anyway... I spent all day catching up with my mom, grandma, aunts, and cousins and I have a renewed sense of family. I forgot how much they've meant to me. My family has stood by me through a lot of crap that I've done and things that have happened to me. For awhile the only thing keeping me sane after Rob died was the impending birth of my cousin Max. I keep fucking up they (for the most part) keep standing by me and keep giving me chance after chance to be a good person. They have mostly accepted that I'm not a good person and don't keep trying to mold me into something I'm not. I used to wish that I was born into a different family but one day I woke up and realized how insanely lucky I am. Even if people hate me, there is absolutly nothing that can make my Mom or my aunts or my Grandma turn their backs on me completely. That's a comforting thing. Right now I hope I'm making them proud. I have done so much to disappoint them that I want them to quit expecting the next fuck up. I haven't done anything in awhile to disappoint anyone, but you never know.